All over the place....

Tomorrow is 6 weeks pregnant!  This is going to be the loooooooongest week ever. Waiting for the ultrasound next Tuesday is going to drive me nuts (again with this patience thing)!

My dear husband and I were shopping in Hallmark this weekend and we found some awesome baby “stuff”. Not for us but for the intended parents!!! We were both so excited about the new treasures we found that we were over the moon. The Hallmark lady must have heard us because she felt the need to tell us how happy she was for the two of us and how excited we must be. Well of course we are excited but not in the way she has in mind. Just when you think you have thought of everything! As my belly grows, I am sure we will get many compliments and well wishes. Although we are excited, it felt weird to accept a compliment regarding another couple’s baby. I am just wondering if it is going to be easier to smile and say thank you and feel a little awkward rather than to respond with “thanks but it’s not my baby” or “The parents are very excited”. My husband is determined on getting a shirt that says, “Maury, I am NOT the father” he thinks he is so funny. There are a lot of super cute surrogacy shirts out there I would love to buy!! Maybe I will just wear one of them every time I go out.

I woke up the other day to find hives all around my injection site. It was itchy and painful (not a pretty site). My sense of smell is so out of control. We were driving down the road and I asked my husband if there was a dog nearby. Then when we finally came to a stop sign we saw the dog two cars in front of us!!

I finally got a workout in today! I have been scared to move faster than a turtle since the transfer (I never claimed to be normal).  With my own kids I never worried about things like that. I was running until I was 6 or so months pregnant with my first daughter and went to the gym all the time with my second. I feel so much pressure carrying someone else’s baby(ies). Knowing what this couple has gone through to have a child….I want nothing but the best for them!

I am a member of a group of women who are also surrogates and are the same place in their journeys as I am as in we all transferred in the month of April. It is great to have such a great support network. But with all the joy also comes some sadness. As a part of this group, you get to know people and their story. Recently a member in our group found out she was not pregnant. She is such a sweet heart and wants nothing more than to bring a child to her IP’s. My heart is just breaking for her. I can’t seem to get her out of my mind. I am just praying she is able to find some peace. I can't imagine the heart break that she and her IP's must be feeling.

Well this post was certainly all over the place! I guess I am a little antsy and maybe a tad bit anxious about the upcoming ultrasound. I just pray we see a healthy baby or two in there.