Bumps...

When I started this blog to share my journey I never imagined the road would include all the bumps and road blocks that I have encountered. One thing I believe about sharing a journey is sharing the whole thing and not just the pretty and fun parts.

For me, the medications have been horrible and if there was a side effect listed I experienced it. One side effect is hanging on strong……weight gain. Can you believe that pumping a whole bunch of hormones into your body could have that effect? I honestly don’t feel my eating habits increased during this process. A lot of the time I was so sick that I couldn’t eat anything. I have to admit I was a bit stressed out during the whole process. So maybe my weight gain has been a mixture of stress and hormones. Again, I did a lot of research to make sure I wasn’t a freak and wasn’t the only one who had gained a significant amount of weight. It seems that 10-25lbs has been what others experienced during a cycle.

Tomorrow marks two weeks since my D&C. I am still surprised from the amount of physical pain and bleeding I am still having. Yesterday was a super hard day for me. I was supposed to be going to my first OB appointment and would have been in the second trimester! I have felt very numb these past two weeks despite my best efforts to stay positive. I am thankful I am blessed with a strong and God fearing man. He has been my rock.

If you are reading this perhaps you noticed a new ticker on the top of the page? I have set a goal of losing 20lbs before our next transfer. I realize the sadness may not disappear overnight but neither will the weight if I continue to sit around feeling sad. Might as well feel sad while going for a run! Running used to be my therapy for all my problems in life but somewhere in life I traded that for food or excuses of being busy. I need to get my mind and body as healthy as I can before the next transfer. So here it goes! I added this ticker as a way to be accountable to myself. I realize that it isn’t all about the pounds so I will be keeping track of inches also. Here’s to continuing this amazing journey as a healthier me!! Cheers welcome =)

“Dictionary is the only place that success comes before work. Hard work is the price we must pay for success. I think you can accomplish anything if you're willing to pay the price.”