The Waiting Game....blah!!

It has been five days since transfer. I have been absolutely not feeling well since. I have to admit it is freaking me out a bit. I have had a few people tell me congratulations on the pregnancy. Although it is nice to hear, it does not apply quite yet. Just because the transfer is complete does not mean it was a success….unfortunately.

The evening after the transfer I began feeling nauseous and had some major cramps. All of this has not subsided one bit since then. Whenever I eat something I almost immediately feel like I could throw up. Now, some of you may think that this is a positive thing…pregnancy symptoms. The scary thing is my period is due in the next few days. If the transfer was not a success then I will most likely get my period before Wednesday. I have had horrible back pain and achy muscles which all are usually sure signs for me to expect that wonderful time of the month. It gets worse…I am having horrible nightmares about getting my period. No really, I am seriously dreaming about my period. I walk into the bathroom to pee and after I am done when I wipe there it is……bright red blood!! TONS OF IT!! What was that to much information? Well, in all fairness I have warmed you in previous blogs that I don’t hold back. Not all the details in a process like this are going to be roses.

What do I normally do when I don’t feel good?? I take a bath….but of course I can’t do that for two weeks!! Is this a whining session? Perhaps maybe, but it is also so other people who are thinking about becoming surrogates realize there are sacrifices that you do not think about.  I have been so sick since I got back and I just happened to have a VERY important job interview on Thursday…I never expected that the transfer date would interfere with other dates coming up. Well, it would be smart to expect that and prepare for what could happen. Thankfully in my case the interview went good! The steroids I had to take definitely had an adverse effect on me. I gained 13lbs in 5 days from them. I didn't eat any different or sit around but yet the weight piled on! With that said, my graduation dress doesn't quite fit right now! I don’t care if I have to wear a garbage bag to graduation as long as I don’t accept my diploma alone (hopefully one or two little people will be in there as well)!!

The official pregnancy test isn't until WEDNESDAY…urgh! I tried to wait and wait but I broke down and took a test. It was negative. No need for alarm quite yet because it was early. But I was bummed because some people do get a positive result before the day of the blood test. It was really sad because my oldest daughter saw the test and was close to having a breakdown because it didn't say pregnant. Like I said before, this is a family affair. We are all on pins and needles with excitement and anxiousness! My husband is so positive and calms me. He randomly texts me during the day telling me to tell the embryos hi or some other cute comment like that.

This waiting period is going to drive me nuts! What do I normally do when I am stressed….take a bath…(ok, I think we all know how to finish that sentence). The clinic said on Wednesday morning that if the test is positive I can give the parents the news. Just writing that last sentence brings me to tears! I want nothing more than to give them good news. I can’t imagine how this wait is driving them crazy as well. I will call them tomorrow so we can complain about the wait together!

Please send thoughts of sticky buns and baby dust my way!!